Well the dating life continues...
I was dating this really great guy who's name I will leave out haha. He was respectful, sweet, loving, caring, a good dad, friend, brother, and son. We dated for about a month. We were literally together every single day. We never missed a day. We loved spending time together. He was even great with my daughter. His whole family was perfect. They accepted me with open arms.
Then comes the moment that I hate. One day I will love. But right now I hate. Prayer. For a few days I was starting to question our relationship and wondered if it was right. There is a lot more to this but I will not be going into detail. I fasted, prayed, and was given a blessing. I loved this guy. With my whole heart. I was willing and wanting to marry him. The answer I was given was not what I wanted. He is not the one. Why?!
I broke it off without real explanation. I mean you cannot tell a guy you are breaking up because you prayed about it and they are not the one. So I gave reasons which were sound and true but not the main reason.
I have not stopped crying. I mean I went to the Temple yesterday to see Melissa go through to receive her endowments. I went to her dinner. I even went dancing. All night and before and after each activity I did I cried my eyes out. I even cried 3 times while at the dance factory because he showed up there. I cried all last night and finally got some sleep when I was suppose to be at church. When anyone brings him up I break down and cry.
My sisters heard that I was having a really hard time and they have decided to fly me out to see them. I am so thankful for family and friends. Shaelyn and I will have a good time. I need the getaway and Shaelyn will have a blast with her aunts and cousins.
It is funny to me that I always seem to run away when I am having a hard time. I usually go see April for a few days or head to Vegas. I will be heading to Washington State on the 20th and coming home on the 30th.
I cannot wait to see my family. I miss them so much. I wish I could find a job as great as the one I have there. I would move away in a heartbeat if I could. Well maybe not since I am such a momma's girl. Plus I have such great friends here too.
Maybe tomorrow will be better.
