Friday, October 29, 2010

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Shaelyn came home from her Dads house and had a surprise waiting for her! She got to meet Skittles for the first time and had a blast being attacked and attacking. Little Lottie also had a fun time attacking Shaelyn since she had not seen her in a few days.

Halloween Pumkins!

Shaelyn had such a fun time decorating with stickers, cookie cutters, and markers. I too had such a great time spending time with her. It is the simple moments like these that make you so proud to be a parent. It just makes all those bad days so worth it. Holidays are really hard sometimes but I am so thankful for my
Shaelyn. She brings so much joy to my life. Moments like these, I think at least, are more for the parents than the children. We get so much from spending time with are dearest ones.


I somehow did not get a picture of the heart she made out of the star stickers. She is growing up so much. She was putting stickers on the pumpkin then says mommy I made a heart. Now, I am thinking oh fun I wonder with this is going to look like... She is four in January. I look and it looks like a heart! She makes me smile so much just watching her grow.





Monday, October 25, 2010

Friday, October 22, 2010

Reputation is what men and women think of us;
character is what God and angels know of us.
Thomas Paine
It requires less character to discover the faults of others,
than to tolerate them.
J. Petit Senn
The only way of finding the limits of the possible
is by going beyond them into the impossible.
Arthur C. Clarke

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Sunrise in Zion







Moving Forward

You know how sometimes you feel like just giving up? I mean think about all the thoughts that go through your mind.
"It really isn't going to happen for you".
"All the good guys are gone".
"You might just have to settle."
"Your being too picky".

You never hear yourself say...
"Wow so many great guys to choose from."
"This guy is too perfect".

Why is finding a good guy so hard? I mean ya there are decent guys out there to date but they never seem to be right for me. There was this guy that I dated that I wanted to fall for. He was smart, fun, established, and cute. But the connection was not there. So we went our seperate ways.

Someone asked my mom a couple months ago if I was just being too picky... What is considered being picky?
Wanting...
a guy who can take me to the temple?
a guy that accepts me for who I am and knows who I was?
a guy that makes me feel special?
a guy that wants to spend tons of time with me?
a guy that has goals and asperations?
a guy that wants children?
a guy that is willing to give 110% to our relationship?
a guy that I have a connection with?
a guy that will be a good father?

I just do not see how any of those attributes are me being picky. I think that they are pretty normal. It is not like I am asking for a rich, certain height, eye color, skin color, hair color, or anything else along those lines.

I just want to feel loved and needed.

I swear the last few guys that I have dated have made me want to give up on the thought of finding that guy. They might have opened doors, paid for the date, been smart, funny, and fun, but they were lacking in integrity. Respect is huge in my world. Should be huge in the lives of everyone.

My life was full of disrespect and I know now how important it is. Especially when I have a daughter to think about. Being disrespected and/or the feeling of being used is horrible.

Everyone deserves the chance to find the one that will treat them good no matter what.

I know that God is watching out for me. I know that he has a plan for me. I just wish I knew the plan. How many bad apples do I have to bite into to find the ripe one? How long am I suppose to wait? Am I going to be single till I am 30?

Being single is not horrible but having someone is so much nicer.

Nights are less lonely.
Mornings are a little brighter.
Days seem to be less stressful.
Conflicts seem to be okay.

Like I said I know that God is watching out for me. I know He has a plan and I need to be patient. I need to put my Faith in Him and remember that everything will work out.

Still living at home with my parents is hard. I LOVE them to death but I am 25 and need to be on my own. I need to feel like life is moving forward. I mean it is. I have made so much progress in my life in the last year.
I made it to the Temple and was able to take out my endowments.
I have made friends that I love and appreciate.
I have learned to be a better Mother, daughter, sister, friend, and just a better person all around.

I can look in the mirror and finally see the person that God knew I could be. I mean I have a lot of work still but at least I can smile back at myself.

I deserve a great guy. My daughter deserves a great father. I want it and I will have it.

I will not settle for your average Joe. I am not your average Jane. I deserve the best and I will wait for it.

I am worth it!

Monday, October 18, 2010

Waiting for Lightning

Standing on the edge of the truth
Looking out at the view
Of all you used to believe
Form where you are you can see you're far away from home
Echoes of the life you once knew
Call out to yo from across the divide
And you know it's time to step back over the line
But are you...

Waiting for lightning
A sign that it's time for a change
And you're listening for thunder
While He quietly whispers your name

Night falls and the curtain goes down
There's no one around
It's just you and the truth
As you lie in wait
for a feeling to take you by storm
Somewhere in the depths of your heart
Where it's empty and dark
There's a flicker of light
And the spirit calls
but do you notice at all
Or are you...

Waiting for lightning
A sign that it's time for a change
And you're listening for thunder
While He quietly whispers your name


But the sign and the word
Have already been given
And now it's by faith
We must look and we must listen
Instead of...

Waiting for lightning
A sign that it's time for a change
And you're listening for thunder
While He quietly whispers your name

Friday, October 8, 2010

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Dating games

So I was chatting with a friend of mine and she needed some dating tips... Well I am not in a relationship so I am not to sure about getting advice from me! But I gave it anyways.
For some reason games work. They are not the immature high school games that I am talking about. Guys are hard to read. They may say they want to take you out again without you even mentioning it and they really do not mean it. Some guys do mean it. I do not understand the purpose of telling a girl you wanna take her out again when you have no intentions of it. So through my dating experiences I have come up with a great way to tell if the guy means it so your not sitting around and waiting for him to finally tell you he is not interested or whatever.
We all know the guy is more than likely going to respond to your text whether he likes you or not. Guys are not that mean to just ignore you. Well most aren't (hehe). Before he or you ends the conversation you need to pipe in and say something along the lines of "Hey, it was good hearing from you, get ahold of me if you wanna hangout." This is putting the next step into their court. DO NOT TEXT THEM! If they do not text you or call you... They are not interested! Plain and simple. You might be a great girl or guy (yes you guys can use it too) but you may just not be their type. Now it is time to get over it and move on... Find a new one to date or just hangout with the girls. Life is not over. He was not your last chance. But hopefully he did get ahold of you. That is when you know they are interested in you or at least intrigued enough to want to get to know you a little more.
I just thought I would share a little bit of what I go through and do. It really does work. I had a great time with this guy named umm we will call him John. John was cute, fun, charming, and very intriguing to me. We went on a few "dates" and hung out a couple times. The time I saw him I was kinda iffy on whether or not he was into me. So I did the whole "well if you wanna do something next week, just get ahold me." He never called or text me. Was it a little heartbreaking? kinda... But there I was at Dennys 3 days later meeting a new guy. Life goes on.
I may be sensitive, but I am not weak!


What a great statement to think about and remember always!